I am not the first person you loved.
You are not the first person I looked at
with a mouthful of forevers. We
have both known loss like the sharp edges
of a knife. We have both lived with lips
more scar tissue than skin. Our love came
unannounced in the middle of the night.
Our love came when we’d given up
on asking love to come. I think
that has to be part
of its miracle.
This is how we heal.
I will kiss you like forgiveness. You
will hold me like I’m hope. Our arms
will bandage and we will press promises
between us like flowers in a book.
I will write sonnets to the salt of sweat
on your skin. I will write novels to the scar
of your nose. I will write a dictionary
of all the words I have used trying
to describe the way it feels to have finally,
finally found you.
And I will not be afraid
of your scars.
I know sometimes
it’s still hard to let me see you
in all your cracked perfection,
but please know:
whether it’s the days you burn
more brilliant than the sun
or the nights you collapse into my lap
your body broken into a thousand questions,
you are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.
I will love you when you are a still day.
I will love you when you are a hurricane.
Clementine von Radics, “Mouthful of Forever”
Kill any notion that she is the one, that she will complete you, that you need her. Kill the assumption that you love her and you will begin, from scratch, to learn to love her. She is not the air you breathe and she is not your other half because you are never anything less than whole. Kill any…
My Bukowski phase was beautiful, empty, but beautiful.
Whoever she is, it makes perfect sense. It always feels like something is missing.
"I’d say my saddest moment was when I got an abortion. But I’m not sure if sad is the right word, because I was young and it was definitely the right decision, but sometimes it still feels like something is missing. Like there was this space that could have been filled by someone, but I chose to leave that space empty. And now there’s just a space. Does that make sense?’
Brad Pitt about Angelina Jolie (via jenny-wbu)